Friday, December 30, 2011

A New Perspective

I went to see an orthopedist/joint care doctor yesterday and I had an epiphany of sorts. After seeing all the other patients who needed canes and walkers and wheelchairs, I am extremely blessed to be able to walk as well as I can. Of course, most of the people were at least twice my age, but still...

Unfortunately, the feeling of gratitude didn't last too long because my right knee started hurting soooo bad, I couldn't even get out of bed. The pain has subsided (as I read it would), and it was a common side effect...and I'm finally able to get out of my bed and walk around. So, back to being thankful...

Friday, December 9, 2011

'Til Death Do Us Part...Wait! WHAT?!?

Marriage is a construct that is drilled in to most children from birth. MOST. I was not taught that. At least I don't remember it. Why is marriage such an important part of society today? The fact is that not everyone will get married. Yes, maybe I am a bit bitter. I would like to get married, but I'm afraid that it's too late for me. I don't want pity, though.

Maybe my parents thought I wasn't the marriage "type". What is the correct type for marriage, anyway? They (my parents) never told me the fairytale that some man will come along and love me for life. Don't I deserve that? I see so many problems in marriages today, that I often wonder why I even want to be married. But then again, there are so many people who are YOUNGER than me with spouses, babies, and houses. It's not fair. When is it my turn?

And if I have to endure one more "In God's timing" comment, I'm gonna scream...then cry. I've never had a boyfriend and would at least like a chance. Even if I don't get married.

REALITY CHECK: MARRIAGE IS NOT THE END ALL BE ALL OF LIFE!

I only wish that a) people would realize that and b) I believed that :(

Tuesday, December 6, 2011

Back to therapy

This should be my last time, though (for my back, at least). I certainly got a workout today! 6 minutes on the bike, stretches, and bridges. My back is good to go. I finally feel like I've healed. When I first got home after my back surgery, I was certain I'd never get any better. Two and (almost) a half months later; I have no pain and I'm done with therapy! Thanks belong to God...He helped me push through (especially when I didn't want to) and He's still doing it. Not much has changed...I really don't want to do anything; but yet...I have good days (like today) where I actually feel like cleaning my room.

We'll see how far I get...